my broken heart needs mending
but you just walk away
without looking back
but then
when have you ever thought of me?

who helps the helpers? something to think about. but then again, we're just cheap labour, not helpers or anything. ha i know i shouldn't get so concerned about these things.. just suck my thumb so hard. anyways want to study for my advanced theory but can't get myself to.. too mundane. gosh this is no good.

watching, waiting, commuserating.

i'd say waiting, waiting, waiting. indeed. it's all one big wait. sorry, it's just been a bad day for me. absolutely swarmed with work. if i got a dollar for every arrow i got today, i'd be richer than bill gates. so get the idea. it's just not as easy as some people make it out to be. i guess it's a different kind of expectation. gah. i just wanna scream.. pls don't choke me. God, help me!

i realise that i do not write much these days. perhaps i don't see the point. it doesn't help anything, other than of course, providing an avenue to vent my frustrations. but it doesn't even serve this anymore. so what? anyway, there isn't much to rant about these days. maybe just one big blot. or make that two. i wish i would not grow numb. it would not be good. if you read what i just wrote and understood, congrats. if not, it just means you're normal. good night.

been feeling sick since fri evening..like after reaching home felt totally sick. began with a sore throat then the usual blocked nose and fluish feeling. still not too well now. might have to take mc tomorrow. but doubt i'd be able to pull it off. it's just that i never take mc that's all. just not me. geeh.

it was quite an impromptu thing yesterday, met up with allele, don and zx. maybe it was unprepared so we didn't do much and the pool places were so full anyway. watched hitchhiker's with allele at lido after dinner. and what a ridiculously funny weird interesting show. the so-cute marvin was just entertaining. but perhaps it's true how sometimes people can feel that way. depressed and gloomy and all. but hey cheer up people! have a good day again and again.